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Okay. Time for a new rant/ vent/ blah thing-a-ma-do.
I am a loser. I have about two and a half friends. I have never done anything fun or exciting. I use alcohol to sooth the pain from an unknown demon and I it is a Saturday night and I am sitting at home doing absolutely nothing. Fun fun fun. Girrrrrrrrrrrr. Argggggg. Meow.
Okay. I am done now.

I Am Here

All I have to say is
I am here
Unwavering and unmoving
I am here
Never to fade or pushed
I am here
A rock in the ocean
I am here
Forever and always
I am here
For you and what ever you need
I am here
An outlet or a tissue
I am here
A night sky or the sun
I am here
For silence or music
I am here
Fun or relaxation
I am here
An escape or a connection
I am here
For ever and always
Unwavering and unmoving
Never to fade or to be pushed away
I am here

Do You Cry at Night?

A broken skin
A faded truth
A mask to hide
What’s really there
But have you forgotten
There is a you
But have you forgotten
Those really are tears you see
A silent sob
An invisible tear
An evil angel
To take you away
But have you forgotten
There is a you
But have you forgotten
That’s me standing there

Fading

An old photo,
In a tattered album,
Has not lost its magic,
Simply its ability to use it.

An ally cat,
That shides away from light,
Afraid of all that moves,
Is not a scardy cat,
Simply a well trained one.

And if that cat,
Were to wonder,
Into the light that had faded the photo,
Would it fade too?
Or would it learn, and hide better the next time the sun shines?

A Perfect Waste of Time

A river
A ride
A death
A night
A hopeful glance
A disappointing stair
Am I helping you out?
Or just wasting my time?

A cut
A drop
A bandage
A scar
A sorrowful tear
A torn tissue
Am I there for you?
Or am I in the way?

A flower
A stone
A grave
A prayer
A deep sigh
A helpless cry
Am I just in time?
Or am I too late?

Stickes and Stones

A rock in a meadow
All alone and cold
A stone sits beside it
Unforgiving and worm
And envy is formed
A friendship ruined
The smooth pebble no longer
A place of comfort
The rock a hard thing to talk to
The stone no longer wading
The rock rough and angry
The stone wet with sorrow
A barrier was formed
The wall was made
And what do you know
The mortar was made
Of not the rock
Or of the stone
But of the gravel
That both had sat on for so long

Demons

Demons that heal
And demons that slay
Demons that won’t leave
Or let your mind at bay
Demons that take
And demons that give
Demons that lie
And wonder what if?
Demons that dance
And demons that play
Demons that chide
And sing the night away
Demons that bleed
And demons that die
Demons that leave me all alone at night
And never stay to say goodbye

All of Me

All that I am
All that I ever was
All that I’ll ever be
Is in the stars

No mortal can reach
No arm is long enough
No will is strong enough
And no one really cares that much to try

All that I am
All that I ever was
All that I’ll ever be
Is all alone

It is of my own making
It is out of self preservation
It is an act of boredom
It is my way of reaching out

All that I am
All that I ever was
All that I’ll ever be
Is perfectly un-content

No smile can fix
No act of goodness either
No mortal being is strong enough
No one but you

Blood and Rain

Don’t let your mind get weary and confused
It will just bring you down
Don’t let the time run with you life
It will go far
Don’t lose your faith in me
It will help you survive
Don’t hide from the rain
It will wash the blood away
And show a whole new day

"Dont put your trust in wall 'cause walls will only crush you when they fall"
-Be Here Now, by Ray LaMontagne