girrrrr

Emily, what are you doing? Seriously, what the hell are you doing? You didnt sleep at all last night, didnt do any homework, which you have qquite a bit of, you didnt do anything. What are you doing? Was rock bottom not low enough for you? want to dig a little deeper? well, be my guest. here, i will even give you a shovel. but just remember this; i will not come down there to help you back out. at least one of us needs to be with the rest of the world, the normal world, the world that is not throwing their life away for what? Sleep? no, thats not it, becasue you arent getting any! Please, tell me what to do to help you, to motivate you, at this point, i am willing to do anything. Anything at all and its yours, just get up off of your ass and doing somthing. Go to school, write, do homework, read. Anything but play that damn video game and lie around thinking how shitty your life it. Enough is enough. Get up! I said get up! *hits self on head with shoe* Up up up!!!!!

Blood and Chocolate

Jealous of someone I don’t know
For something I cant ever have
And angry at myself for these feelings
But I cant help myself
I told him how I felt
What more can I do but wait
Wait for someone else
And wait for him to be happy
Which I do wish to happen
Whether it be with me
Or someone else
He deserves at least that much
For all that he has done
For everything that he helped me through
He deserves so much more than happiness

The Sonnet Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)     Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?     Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance. Your exact opposite: Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master     Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.     You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls. ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth CONSIDER: The Loverboy Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating. My profile name: pulchralacuna

ZZZZzzzz

I feel tired. Tired of chasing people who don’t want me. Tired of sleeping all the time. Tired of being lazy. Tired of not being confident. Tired of my blog, my writing, my poems. Everything seems to be the same. There is nothing new in my life and I am tired of it. I need something new. A partner, a friend, a drinking buddy. Anything is better than what I have, which is nothing. And I just realized, nothing is what I have had for a long, long time. Even when Michelle and I were together, she was never mine. I was hers. I had nothing and I still do. I just want something, anything.

WTB NEW LIFE, PTS ME